McMillan Clan

The Last Sin Eater

New stuff...old stuff is new... Will he wake up?

My husband bought a new computer. It has a blue- ray player, and he can be on his computer while we are watching a blue ray disc on the big screen but running from his computer. There are a lot of cables involved. I don't like cables. I usually get them all tangled up. We watched two movies last night. There was the water horse, and that was nice. Good kids movie. The other was National Treasure. Nothing big...but it was ok. It was Hollywood...what do you expect? blah.

I prefer movies that teach my kids something. or it's a tale about Christ. The Last Sin Eater. That is a great movie. I love movies that have symbolism, like To Kill a Mockingbird...etc.

Tomorrow Rebekah has her 6 month checkup. She is not going to get shots. I will not let them talk me into it. I have decided not to immunize anymore. Yes, I am looking for trouble. I have been told that immunizations don't cause Autism. I think this is a big cover up. I am happy people are out there and they can speak up. I think Autism has a lot to do with what we put into our bodies. I think that it is more prevalent now than in years past because we have all these ready to eat processed foods.

I would much rather have organic healthy food for my family. I am going to try to grow food in my back yard in big pots. I am looking forward to this. I am looking forward to maybe even canning some items. I might even just buy frozen fruits, and make homemade jelly and can it. I think it would be a good project for us to do for home-school this year. I also think it would be good to teach my girls about being self sustaining, and not rely on the store so much. I would like to minimize my grocery bill. Michael is even looking for a scooter to purchase when we get up to Virginia. This should save in gas. I don't plan on going anywhere in my van. I plan on staying at home. We can walk around the neighborhood and go on field-trips in the forest. I am looking forward to our family trips to Washington d.c.

I love blogging. I don't capitalize, spell correctly.. or watch my grammar. I think it's great. NO worries.  It's life the way I like it, not perfect. I am looking forward to going to the thrift stores in Virginia. I am looking forward to going back to the little country church that we attended. I miss it actually. I am looking forward to the quiet of a good church. I am looking forward to being moved. I like new places, new houses, and new faces. I like change. I guess I get bored easily.

Today it was hot outside here. 102 degrees at least. The heat index was about 108.  We ran the bus for our church ministry. I think that the kids did good today. Many of them just need love, and attention. Sometime they aggravate, but when they go I just ask God to hold them in his hands. They need him so.

SO mike got his new computer, and now I have his old laptop, and the kids have my old desktop. No more fighting with who gets to do what. I can blog anytime. I can do my schoolwork. Woohoo!

I am looking forward to another week. Only about two weeks left till the movers come.

My son is two, but his mind is still stuck on being one. I wonder if he will wake out of this delay that he is in. I want him to talk. He was about 20 months when he started to walk. He did everything slow. He is our first boy, so I was so gung ho on him doing things with daddy. I wanted him to be a tough boy, but he is not. God had other plans. I wanted him to be able to be right there and do things that normal two year olds do.  I have  started giving Isaac acidophiles pills, to get the bad yeast out. I think this might be a problem that he has, and it is causing a brain cloud...brain fog. I'll blog to tell if he does come out of it.

Obamanation= Abomination

Yep, I said it. It has nothing to do with Mr. Obama being an African American. It has everything to do with Mr. Obama and his support for Right to choice. Abortion is murder, and he is for letting that happen. I don't agree with his values because they indeed are liberal and I am a republican. I am not a republican just because I can be one, but the values of a republican are those that once actually counted for something. When America lost it's spine.... that's when we started electing democrats that were all for freedom of this, and that..... this is when God truly turned his back on us.

Have you noticed that the media is obsessed with religion? It's getting close, and I can't wait. I am talking about Jesus coming to take us home. No more Obama, or McCain, or any other leader to lead us in the path's of destruction. No more homo's marrying homo' s and no more rotten television. It's all corrupt. Yep, I am having a pretty stinky day... but I did get some decent discounts out at the PX.

Of course it is a free country, and people can do what they want, but I will stand up for CHRIST, even if no one else hears me.. I WILL STAND FOR HIM!!!

Looking for a cure for Isaac's Brain Fog

An Overview of the Marshall Protocol from Amy Proal on Vimeo.

The start of a busy week

Sundays are the first day of the week. I say this because they are the days that we give to GOD for rest. He created it all right? SO on Sundays we don't necessarily rest, since we work in the bus ministry. Our church has 4 buses, and we really need more but that is not for me to decide. We had over 40 kids on o ur bus this week. We don't go door knocking looking for kids...if we did, there would be no room on the bus for them. Kids just want to come to church. They love being here at church. It is an outreach ministry of our church. I was raised a bus kid, and I am so glad that I was able to go to church that way.

SO today is kind of like clean up from the weekend, and we also have to start getting the house ready for the movers to come and move everything out. Today we might do a little school work, but for the most part school is done until September. BY then we should have some place to live. Michael's report date is August 10th. We hope to have a new house then..but we'll see...who knows....

The girls want tp practice their ballerina moves. I would much rather have them dressing them up in their ballerina outfits in the house, and watch a ballerina video that instructs them in beginners ballet. This is much more cost effective, and I don't have to worry about who is teaching them.

I am going to do the same thing for piano but I am basically going to teach myself as I teach them. I just have to tune the piano when we move into a new place. I have been told that every time you move the piano needs to be tuned again. So we are waiting for that one.

With the help of a new place, I can finally get things organized. Here we have four bedrooms but we don't have any storage, so the fourth bedroom is storage space. So much for a craft room.

well...it looks like chaos here, so I must bid you all adios.....

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Music is an outlet for expression and for devotion

I went to church on a church bus. My life outside the church was the typical secular life of listening to rock music, watching MTV, cussing at school, being cool, ya know the typical teen life. My life on the church bus was a refuge from all that. I grew up going to church where the girls and ladies were supposed to wear dresses to church all the time. That is certainly changing now. I still wear dresses. In fact that is all that I wear...but that is a different blog to attend to...but anyway, Women wear pants to church now, and that seems to be okay. There are many people that wear pants, and they seem to think that it's okay. I am not one to judge anybody. It's your call. Anyway the point is that the Church's that I attended while growing up also believed in very conservative Christian music. Talk about being a hypocrite. I was . Going to church on Sunday, and listening to Nirvana Sunday afternoon. That was me. But I never really grew out of listening to Christian gospel music. 

Lately I find myself praising the Lord with contemporary Christian music. This music is appealing, but actually I feel more close to the Lord when I am singing the music.

If I was still in a church that was very conservative this would be a NO-NO. IS this wrong to feel that it is wrong? I love to Praise the Lord, and I don't think that this music is wrong. I really do feel that I am in Worship to the Lord.

What is this?

Okay, so I am not going to vote for Obama or Hillary because I am not a Democrat. I do agree with Obama that abortion is not something that we want in this country. I don't think that it is okay to let it continue for the sake of women's rights. I think Murder of any kind to human beings should be punishable. I mean, who gets away with murder?...no one should, yet many women murder for the bottom line of not wanting to take responsibility. So many people are brainwashed into thinking that abortion only happens to those women who are raped or have a medical condition that requires it. That is total BULL CRAP. The main reason that women choose abortion is because they just can't handle the responsibility.

Okay like I was saying, This Obama - friend pastor is crazy. If a white person ( and unfortunately color does matter) got up in a white church (there aren't any WHITE churches) and started saying all that, they would put the white preacher on trial. This is ridiculous. I don't think that just because Hillary is white that she is entitled to anything. Where, and why do Black people or whoever they are keep getting this info that we are entitled because we are white? Give me a break. I for one am glad that I am not a democrat, but I am still not voting in November. It isn't going to matter. I think this country is already headed towards doomsday, and I for one am glad because that just shows me Christ is coming back soon.

I really do think that this race will become a race issue. Racism and hate are in our blood whether we like it or not, it will not go away. We were all created with sin, but I don't think that we need to feed it. I think that it can be starved.

Well, today we have to go to the grocery store. This is day one for Isaac on a GFCF diet, so here goes...

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This is what I am doing, and I am sticking to it, for his sake.

Isaac was acting crazy today. He was running around in circles. He was his usual lucid self...in a brain fog. I have given him wheat this week. It was a 3 on his allergy tests. SO I think form now on I am going to stick him with a wheat Free no matter what diet. I really want to get him on whatever Jenny McCarthy has done with her son, but unfortunately I don't have the fund for that kind if diet. I am going to get him off milk too, and go for a GFCF diet.

Way to go Kirk.....He had a good testimony for the Lord.

My Son has a weird shaped head

I called to find out the CT results today for Isaac. He doesn't have chhlkjhlkhlkhlkh.... or.. errr.. I mean Craniosynostosis....so he is okay for not having that. I still have to find out if his genetic work up is anything to worry about. Even though I am worrying. My husband actually said tonight for the first time " Can he be tested for Autism?"

I paused.... I have been waiting for him to even ask something like that. I really thought he had been in denial for a long time. I just assumed he was going to stay that way.. in his thinking. But tonight he asked, and then stated... "I wouldn't be surprised if he did have it"

I would have hoped that he might have craniosynostosis, so that he could have surgery but he doesn't. I want him to have surgery for his CHiari, but the neuro doc says there is no syrinx, so there is no need to operate. It's frustrating to because he can't talk and tell me when he hurts. The cranio thing can be fixed, but the chiari can't be, it can only be releived a little.

I have been trying out these videos on Isaac in hopes of him talking. One is called "watch Me Learn" and it is repetetive play and sayign words so that he can learn how to talk.

The other is first signs by baby einstein. I like it, it is very good for him. He has learned some signs with it. I guess that's all for tonight<><

All Done

Today Isaac had yet again another sedation procedure done. He had to be sedated for a CT scan on his skull to see if the bones had closed  up too early. We don't have any word on it yet, but I do have the disk that has the scan on it. I just can't interpret it. Pretty neat seeing his skull, and his profile. He is still a little loopy.

Genetics testing hasn't come back yet. We are looking to see if he has Williams Syndrome ( at least I am) and working with him daily so that he can learn to talk. Sometimes it is like talking to the wall. I don't know if he will EVER respond to me, but I am trying....hoping.

No more long drives up to UNC Chapel Hill. But there is still some driving to do. We MOVE June 30th. That's the day we will be homeless, and yes that's the day we clear housing. Housing has gotten a lot better since being in the army. I could tell ya some HorroR stories about clearing housing.

Here's one:

Mike was in the marines. He went to Okinawa two months after we got our first house on base. We had been married a year and I decided to move in with a older lady from church so that I could help her, and she could help me. We had only lived in the house two months, and so I thought it would be easy to get out of it. Boy was I wrong!

I had to wax all the hard wood floors ( the whole little bitty 2 bedroom house) Even though there wasn't any wax on the floors when I came in. Ohh! It angers me just thinking about it.. I was so Naive.. thought that I couldn't so anything about it. It was one of those "White Glove" Inspections. It was awful. Needless to say It gave me an awful impression of military housing. I truly hated it.

But life gets better for military housing. After five years in the army it has been brighter. The military housing has been "privatized" or sold to a private housing company. There are different companies for each base...but they are pretty much the same. The next base that we go to is like this:

If you don't get a good house... it's one of those that don't have carpet in them at all. It's ALL Vinyl flooring. The only carpet that we would have is the stairs. But they do have fences, which is a plus if you want your kids to go and play.

If you don't have a fence ( which we don't right now...cause on Bragg you have to BUY your own fencing ).. then you settle for kids walking thru your yard... kids coming up and looking in your windows....this happened to me recently at 11 at night while I was on the phone with mike when he was TDY...a little boy ran up to the sliding glass door in the back yard and waved, and then ran.

I was horrified... not expecting that to happen.

We also have door bell ringers. They mysteriously run when we go to the door. It could be a ghost?

I am not looking to go back to the same housing. We had ten little visitors in two days that visited the cheese traps. It was awful. The next door neighbor had gotten a ferret.. and ran the little critters to our house.

But like I was saying basically you just have to dust, wipe, and sweep. It's a very easy process of leaving.